I Don't Get It.

So, this may be a little rant-esque, but I promise to keep it short.
Since "OPSEC" is big, I won't use specific dates or anything, but I have been becoming increasingly annoyed with the military and their choice to continually tell us that they are changing the homecoming date. Do you know how I feel about that? I think that they can take their indecisiveness and shove it. To be completely honest with you, I think it is a crock of carp that they even give a homecoming date in the first place. They give a tentative one, then one four weeks later, in the words of my key caller, "so that we didn't get mad if they came home late." I am going to go ahead and call BS on that one, Army. Way to go with the stupid card.

I do understand that this is the life we signed up for, this is going to be our life for however long Ryan stays affiliated with the military, and I'm ok with it, but it will probably never cease to frustrate me. Why give a date in the first place if all you're going to do is change it 87 times? Give me one date, the date he's coming home. In a sense I don't care if its a month and a half from the original date you gave me JUST MAKE UP YOUR MIND. Grrrrrrr.

Ok, off my soap box now.

Lessons Learned

This week I have learned a lot about things that "civilian" people take for granted that I never realized. There are so many important things when it comes to life and relationships, that people just seem to go through the motions. Particularly with this holiday that we're having--Valentine's Day. What is that really all about? Most girls will get some form of chocolate or flowers and won't even think twice about it. They will go to dinner or on some form of date with their significant other, and that will be the extent of the night. For me, I cherished every single minute I spent talking to him on AIM. The whole half hour we spent with a bad internet connection, just saying I love you. He wasn't able to call, I wasn't able to see him--nor hear his voice on this special day, let alone spend the entire day just soaking it all in with each other. But, I believe that this shows how real our love is. He sent me 3 dozen roses--it's not the number of them or how much they cost that was amazing to me, it was that he took the time from his busy life overseas to show me just how much I mean to him on a day like this. Love takes effort, and sometimes we forget how important the little things are. Stop and tell someone how much they mean to you just once. If you have someone to squeeze today, squeeze them extra hard for me because you never know when you won't be able to anymore. I love you Ryan, you're my hero and my best friend.

You Know He's Deployed When...

You take your cell phone in the shower.
The mailman knows you by name.
The most random things make you burst into tears.
Everything reminds you of him, but nothing feels the same without him.
You cry during the National Anthem.
You make a list of things you want to tell him when he calls.
You stop watching the news.
You can't remember the last time you shaved.
Every single pillow in the house is next to you at night and the bed still feels empty.
You hate hearing the words, "I know how you feel."
You have a countdown to some "mysterious celebration" located somewhere on your computer, in your room, etc.
Calls at 3am don't phase you.
His shirts become your PJs.
You want to have your cell phone surgically attached to your hand.
You "get ready" to take pictures for him.
You avoid all of the "happy couples" and "lovey holidays" or else you feel like smacking somebody.
You're planning a wedding through emails.
A call from a 6 digit number makes your heart race--you wouldn't dare ignore it.
You run out of class without bothering to say anything when you see its him calling.
Reading these is making you cry.


So, that's the list I could compile... if you have more feel free to add them!

Getting Antsy

So we got word that the people in our apartment are moving out today. The place will be ready in 10 days, our move in date is set for the day I get to NC for my spring break. That day is Friday March 6! I am completely geeked for these apartments, they're gorgeous! We have a first floor two bedroom, 2 bathroom near the back of the complex. All the appliances are new [black] and there are maple cabinets.

I bought my "homecoming" top this afternoon. I fell in love with it when I first saw it. Here is a picture from the website.



I can't decide whether I want to wear jeans or leggings with it. If I wear jeans I have this killer pair of black wedge heels. I'm not sure what kind of shoes look good with leggings, so we'll see about that once the shirt comes in the mail.

I also got the "Welcome Home" sign that I ordered from buildasign.com on Veteran's Day. That site is absolutely wonderful and offers "free" welcome home banners [you have to pay for the shipping] a few times a year. I would reccommend it to anyone, most definitely.

AH! The hubbs just got online so I will be cutting this short.